It really has been too long. Good, bad? I don’t even know where to start. Lately, I feel like we’ve been growing a part. I know I’ve told you before, but I just feel like you don’t see it. I feel like I’m just not up to par with you. Sometimes, I feel like I don’t know you at all. I know you’ve told me I was boring before. But, now I’m starting to believe you’re getting bored of the relationship.. Of us. You always seem too busy and in return, I try and add more and more things to my list just so it seems like I’m as busy as you are. But, I guess I can’t keep up with that either. I understand that you really have no choice but to be busy.. And I feel like that’s what happens to couples. They get too busy for each other. I always thought that we were a “perfect” couple (my definition of perfect), but it seems like it got out of hand. I know I’m just laying out feelings right now because I really haven’t felt like this in a very long time. I don’t miss it. At all.

But really, I feel like we’re falling a part slowly. Just little things. Like I when I saw that you were watching a movie today. Thanks for the invite. Really. Your own boyfriend. You really had no excuse to not even shoot me the invite. You dropped me off at my car at 8 and I went to the gym around 9 something and got done around 10 something. I’m pretty sure I could’ve made the the movie. No, I’m definite. But to no avail, you failed to communicate with YOUR OWN BOYFRIEND. Really. I know I should be talking to you instead of blogging out all my thoughts, but I really don’t want to argue. I hate arguments. Well, I like them, but I hate them because sometimes they just end up nowhere. Waste of time.

3:35 AM in the morning. Tears are still rolling out of my eyes. This is ridiculous. I haven’t cried in like two years…

Men cry.. Men cry